Words & Lyrics
Show Some Empathy
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here i am in no man’s land
i have no plan, i need no plan in no man’s land
park my van, set up my camp
i rid my brand, i play in sand in no man’s land
here i am, it seems i ran
away from what i understand, i reprogram
i’ll be damned to eat the fruit
if i stay stranded as i am in no man’s land
seldom do i follow anybody
do i follow anybody?
do you follow?
do i follow you? do you follow me?
do we follow the same people? do you follow?
seldom do i follow
fall over i hit the bottom
do you hear me? do you follow?
do i follow you? do you follow me? do we follow the same people?
do you follow?
do you follow?
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i wanna be what you want me to
i wanna be what you like
someone to call when you’re feeling blue
you don’t need to call every night
you’ve got a lot that’s ahead of you
you’ve got a lot on your mind
i’ve got a lot that i wanna do
places to go, things to find
to find, define
count down the days, what they’re leading to
to celebrate a restart
it’s time to feel like yourself again
pretend to know who you are
you are
i’m here to stay, i’m not leaving you
there may be challenging parts
whatever shape that you need me to
liquified state, liquid heart
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so the thrill is gone
no one’s coming
too much going on to feel something
to do nothing at all
so seems you’re not so strong
you’re just some portraits
painted with power, drawn with self importance
i’d like to think that things are looking up
‘cause I’m just tryna feel the way the ocean does
so it’s gone all wrong
you’ve destroyed it
god i hope you feel good knowing how you’ve exploited
you’ve disjointed us now
so sad you’ve gone so long and done so poor
it’s like you’ve not known all along and just ignored it
i’d like to think that things are looking up
but i don’t feel too sure the way the oceans flood
i’d like to think that things are looking up
but i don’t feel too sure the way the oceans flood
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show some empathy
show me you’ll be hurting
show me that you’ll miss me
i don’t disagree
want this to be easy on you
easy on me
it always will be
always been since autumn
always on the same team
such high density
let me drain this water
let me let me release
share your energy
show me down the allies you’d hang out as a teen
walk me through the streets
take over my body, take my eyes take my feet
shut and in the green
begging to unwind if something here could guide me
to a place complete
swinging back and forth until your face and mine meet
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my hearts been broken
it’s been broken before
but not by you
i never thought that i would open up that door
but i had to
i had no room
i had to see the other floors
i had to do it
just wishful hoping, wasn’t expecting more
cause i assumed this is the shape we’ve grown into
well boohoo
la la ladididadada dadada
i don’t mind the pine
i don’t mind the pine, do i?
do i?
do i?
do i?
i’ll make you smaller, shrink you down to a size
where you blend in to all the other people passing through my life
you’ll fit right in
you’ll look like them
you won’t stand out or be the light
there’s nothing to it
i’ll be the author and i’ll keep you alive
i’ll write about how i no longer think of you
oh boohoo
and i said la la ladididadada dadada
i don’t mind the pine
i don’t mind the pine, do i?
do i?
do i?
do i?
do i?
ladadadooddoodadodoaddaaa
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i can’t stop thinking about
how bad I want you around
and I know that this is so new
i guess I’m overwhelmed by you
i guess we’ll figure it out
what’s time if nothing but counting days til i wake up with you?
wonder if you’re counting too
i’m just so overwhelmed by you
so i’ll take it slow and let you know
i’ve never been so comfortable
so calm yet so out of control
so clear yet out of focus
stuck on my mind
holding me tight
and hardly any time’s gone by but i’m feeling inspired
in your arms i could die
i feel I’m running my mouth
i can’t stop talking about how i wasn't looking for you
never would think to be true
in case i’m losing my ground
hang tight and hold me accountable for the things that i do
i don’t want to play the fool
i am just so overwhelmed
i’ll hold my breath and watch my step
allow myself open again
to live inside the intimate and hope it isn’t broken
stuck on my mind
holding me tight
and hardly any time’s gone by but i’m feeling inspired
in your arms I could die
So That’s Life
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things i used to know but have forgotten
things that i continue to forget
you were a reminder that i’ve rotten
died then decomposed and grown again
i am just a million different people
all doing a million different things
some of them are good others are evil
most of them i haven’t even met
onto the next
there’s so many of them
picture of what it’s like inside your body
think of what it’s like without a head
nowhere you can process your sensations
feeling is the only thing you get
somewhere far away there is a conscience
something that can hear and see and smell
neutral internalizing all of it
they don’t have a heart they’re just a head
let them connect
don’t be without a head
without a head
without a head
without a
without a
head
head
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i don’t want a broken heart
i want it strong, i want it smart
i want the sun, i want the stars
i want the moon, i want m-mars
i want to run as fast as cars
i want to spend time on a farm
i want your love want every part
i want to wake with no alarm
to do my best, to do no harm
to lend a hand, to lend an arm
but sometimes it feels like it is the opposite
as i return to what is real
im forced to face wh-what i feel
and what i don’t
and how to talk
i used to know, but i forgot
i’ve only got a broken heart
i’ve got no sun, i’ve got no stars
i’ve not moon, i don’t have mars
i’ve never spent time on a farm
i’ve got your love, but just a part
i have to wake to an alarm
but often i, i wish it were the opposite
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love
it’s what it all boils down to
love
it is why, it is because
because it is the earth that surrounds you
love
it is all that's above -
love
it’s the coin in the fountain
what you wished for, everyone does
because it is the air all around you
love
it is why, it is because
love
love
it’s what it all boils down to
love
it is why, it is because
because it is the earth that surrounds you
love
it is all that's above
love
it’s the warmth of the body
love
it’s the warmth of the sun
my heart screams bare and naked
is that love?
is that enough?
love
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changing before me
blue, pink, to gray
isn’t that the perfect way to end a day?
but lovely as it may
it’s soon to go away and restore
a new day, a new score
hear your words forming
i feel the age
wish i didn’t feel i had to say something
cause love you as i may
i’ve had to look away times before
i’ve ignored it before
then i cried so hard
say you try to hard
only go so far
you don’t see the person
cause you don’t see the man
you only see the woman that you claim i am
but call it what you may
it’s always been the same at its core
only trained to conform
i am change, i was born / and i cried so hard
say you try so hard, only go so far
and oh my heart, say you try so hard
though you try so hard, only go so far
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search for an alternative way to be left alone
eyes on the road, eyes on the road
i felt like a human when i asked to hold you close
taking it slow, taking it slow
eyes on the road, eyes on the road
eyes on the road, eyes on the road
you’re not someone i can know
i care a little bit
i swear i saw you glow
young and unassuming wearing all my favorite clothes
far from my home, searching for home
see what's universal, try to feel the cardinal
feeling it pull, feeling it pull
i think we’re full enough, i think we’re full
think we’re both full enough, think we’re both full
you’re not someone i can know
i care a little bit
i swear i saw you glow
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is this what i had in mind?
to be completely indifferent is to be completely fine
isn’t that how to feel light?
speak with only intention, say only what's right and true
are you done talking yet?
that’s enough out of you
are you done talking yet?
how can i claim what is mine
when i am constantly changing, constantly dying?
different each day passing by
as are you
are you done talking yet?
that’s enough out of you
are you done talking yet?
so that’s life
it’s just how you spend your time
who you keep by your side
what you like
how you feel after a fight
what you choose to assign
you write cross-eyed, too
Things Feel Kind of Weird These Days …and They’re Only Getting Weirder
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I never wanted to be the best
Sounds like a challenge, way too much stress
I take what I want and I leave the rest
I'll keep my promise, leave you on read
Now I'm drowning in the water that I never got in
Now I'm drowning in the water that I never got in
I'm at the circus, I hang my head
Cool on the surface, manual breath
I am the furthest from your intent
What is my purpose and what do I intend?
Now I'm drinking from the water that I never wanted
Now I'm drowning in the water that I never got in
I'm doing the best that I can
Somebody help me understand
I can't figure it out, got no plan
Won't somebody tell me, tell me?
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comfort me in ways that feel okay
control me, destroy my defenses
la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-love me
open me, engage all my senses
enter me and leave me defenseless
trust me
am i not loud enough?
comfort me in ways that feel okay
control me, destroy my defenses
love me
balance me, collapse, and breathe in my energy
i ask if you really love me
am I not proud enough?
comfort me,
(comfort me, i need a friend)
come
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i’m standing still
at least that’s what they tell me
i’ve been caught in the thrill of adolescence and in that i’m blind
confined to words in my mind, though left unspoken
you read his will
at least he went and left you something
oh in his brilliance, he forgot about his other child
now they’re blindly floating on by with binds still broken
and though his grace is breathing down your spine
i know they’re tryna be something they're not cause they don’t have a mind
though i bet they’ll put up a good fight
i guess you're right
and we’re blindly floating on by
overkill
a cease of condescending glory
i don't even have to try any longer
not that i would put up fights or sacrifice
i’d blindly float by
but i saw them let you sit there drink your wine
let you yell at all the waiters when they wouldn’t serve you soon enough, but i
i couldn't care to live your fine-tuned life
least you’re going out in style
and oh old flame don't burn me twice
we’re finally getting used to your bark and bite
life’s a game, i know you played your cards right
and though his grace is breathing down your spine
i’ll just wait
and i’ll just float on by
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why should we be here?
and why not go?
too much to see here
too much to know
but i don't know most anything
living always wondering why we need water and light
i feel enabled to lose control
i should be grateful i’ve a body and a soul
but i don't know most anything
who to ask of anything?
no one really knows
only guesses and hope
hope
if nothing ever mattered
then nothing ever will
accept the ride, swallow your pride
this life we’ve been thrown in
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i remember when
i used to think of you when i would go to bed
and every word that you had ever ever said
ran through my head and to my feet
i can't comprehend
i make decisions that i know i will regret
i make it up as i go, hope i make some sense
i hope i don’t forget to breathe
i remember thinking honestly
‘i don't want to feel the heat
i have no heart i hear no beat’
i don't feel the need to be there
i don’t care
i don’t wanna be there
do you know what i mean?
i’m scared
i don’t wanna be there
i don’t wanna be there
i just want to be free
to wander endlessly
feel this sense of dread
it’s washing over me
i try to clear by head or keep it busy
but i’m hanging by a thread
hope i don’t get cut down yet
i beg and i beg and i beg
but i remember thinking honestly
‘i just wanna go to sleep’
i feel my eyes they’re so heavy
i don't feel the need to be there
i don’t care
i don’t wanna be there
do you know what i mean?
i’m scared
i don’t wanna be there
i don’t wanna be there
i just want to be free
to wander endlessly
i know someday we’ll go back there
i know someday we’ll go back
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farther and farther i get
far, far from this safety net
memories fade but i can’t forget
“stay in this moment” i said
back when i thought all made sense
i’ve got two homes but i’ve not won yet
i don’t want to feel that way again
holding onto words i never said
when it’s getting cold and the windows wide open
i guess i’m just broken, i feel no wind
breathe in as i take a step
close door, heard you scream, i left
i was so open and you just fell in
i confess i can’t recall, that might be for the best
i don’t want to feel that way again
holding onto words i never meant
words shoved down my throat
said you love me, you don’t
as if you even know how to love a friend
love a friend
i don’t want to feel that way again
holding onto words i never said
when it was so cold all the windows were open
and i was so broken, i felt no wind
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i don’t want to be set free
what if i get too happy?
i’m right where i need to be
what if i get too happy?
always have been told that i’ll be fine when i find home. although i fear i’ll make it there and i won’t know that i am there so i will go, and wonder if i am supposed to be happy
i don’t need to feel complete
i don’t think that would please me
i don’t need the rest of me
what if i get too happy?
always thought i’d known that i’d be fine just down the road. although i fear i’ll walk too far and i won’t know when i get there so i will go
and think i’m not where i’m supposed to be
and wonder if i am supposed to be
happy
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i spent some time in the passengers side
i let my mind drift away
i closed my eyes, listened close to the tires
roll on the road that was paved
i heard you say
“what a beautiful day”
why? always got an issue
in the back of your mind, a flame
time goes by, what’ll we grow into?
in the blink of an eye, things change
i got a bike and i went for a ride
looked to my left saw a lake
i hit the brake
got off and i gazed
spent so much time tryna walk with no spine
never could seem to stand straight
boy it feels great to stay in one place sometimes
sometimes
why? always got an issue
in the back of your mind, a flame
time goes by, what’ll we grow into?
in the blink of an eye, things change
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i was
i was wondering if i could have a moment of your time, ‘cause
i would love to look around, pick up on pieces of your mind, ‘cause
cause it’s good
i was
i was never one to wander ‘cause i always kept my eyes shut
should’ve opened them and seen that everything would line up
i still could
i guess it’s only right of me to heal myself
to look inside of me
but i can’t see, the light is blinding me
don’t leave my side
i’m losing my mind
am i alive? can i put this moment aside?
i’ve lost track of time
is this still worth my while?
am i even alive?
times up
i’ve been talking too much, tell me when you need me to rewind ‘cause
i don’t know what i could find i never find enough
i feel the world is telling me
“straighten your spine, sit up, fix everything
but live your life, mess up, break everything
all in good time, all in good time”
i’m losing my mind
am i alive? can i put this moment aside?
i’ve lost track of time
is this still worth my while?
am i even alive?
oh most of my life i felt so bright, so right
no one told me that i might lose track of time
am i alive? am i?
am i even alive?
am i even alive?
am i even alive?
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i walked through the town that i made
passed benches i placed in the shade
thought back to the bricks i had laid
what did i do it all for?
i spoke to some people that came by
showed them some houses, they waved
nobody wanted to stay
what did i do it all for?
you can't imagine all of the work i have done
cross-eyes and spastic, where did it all come from?
now i’ll never match it
what’ll i become?
time passes so i move away
start searching for more empty space
i can’t seem to stay in one place
what if i start to get bored?
wonder if it’s all the same
i fear that i’ll die with my name
if life is all just a game, what are we playing it for?
you can't imagine all of the work i have done
cross-eyes and spastic, where did it all come from?
now i’ll never match it
what’ll i become?
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things feel kind of weird these days
found out that i’m so afraid
that i’ll keep going the way i’m going
i’ve tried for the longest time
somehow i’m not timeless
Otherside
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i never meant to spend the night, i never meant to stay
you shut the door, turned out the light, said “go to sleep, dorée”
it was so cold and i was tired, it had been a long day
i closed my eyes and fell asleep, knew it was okay
but i don’t want to go outside
i just need a ride
and i don’t want to get excited yet
laying down in someone else’s bed
never been here, guess i’ll try it
lights go out and i stay silent
i don’t want to get excited yet
you stripped me down, built me back up, i’m built a different way
i lost control, i got in touch and i don’t feel the same
it’s not that bad i’m doing fine i go about my days
only miss you every night and every time i wake
but i don’t want waste your time
i just got too,
too much pride
and i don’t want to get excited yet
laying down in someone else’s bed
in discussion i stay silent , trying to keep an opened mind
but i don’t want to get excited
whichever the way the wind blows, it’s never as windy as it seems
and tell me to get get up lets go, let go but i don’t know what that means
and i don’t want to get excited yet
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wait
there’s something in the water
you’re elated, you don’t have to bother
while i’m pacing the room that i should lay
face the monsters in the bottle while i’m awake
my mistake, but i don’t care to explain
til i’m faded and wasting away
mourning the mourning of that day
and i don’t really need another pity cry
or a shitty fight
or a “will you be alright?”
i don’t need nothing, but i know you like to come off as the bigger guy
so take the wheel and drive
and there she goes
this is getting old
traces of broken conversation
“open up more” you said “i won't lose my patience”
then the fog clears out but i’m still underground
under spells of innocence and other things i wish i’d found
oh god, i got so close
the bigger picture never shows the big inflictions i suppose
and i
and i
and i’m wasted and fading away
mourning every morning like today
and i don’t really need another pity cry
or a shitty fight
or a “will you be alright?”
i don’t need nothing, but i know you like
to come off as the bigger guy
so take the wheel and drive
and there she goes
this is getting old
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sunday night
too many plants in the garden
oh how’m i gonna sleep tight?
and the wind will blow from the cold window outside
so i go to a fantasy world where time will move on slow
and the sun will shine and all the plants will grow
and i couldn’t show you the right way
cause darling it’s a mystery
but i will hold your hand tight, and soon it’ll be history
but you don't know, cause you’ve always felt alone
but i’m sure i’ll show
just you wait
everything has gotta fall down sometimes
when you pick it up it’ll be worth the fight
and we’re gonna be alright
fire away
times are tough to find a peaceful piece of mind
but i’ll be waiting for you on the other side
and we’re gonna be alright
there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, though it may not be in sight
and the storm will pass and the sky will fill with kites
and i know nothing’s for sure but i think we’ll make it out alive
you can come lean on my shoulder a thousand times
and i couldn’t show you the right way
cause darling it’s a mystery
but i will hold your hand tight, and soon it’ll be history
but you don't know, you’re too far away from home
but i’m sure i’ll show
just you wait
everything has gotta fall down sometimes
when you pick it up it’ll be worth the fight
and we’re gonna be alright
fire away
times are tough to find a peaceful piece of mind
but i’ll be waiting for you on the other side
and we’re gonna be alright
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laid down and strung out, no control, but doing fine
preoccupied with hoping that i
take back the confidence i had when i was 5
un - jeopardized alone in my mind
i’m at a loss see, i don’t want to be disembodied
i would rather stay inside
or whisper softly, “i just wanted to be somebody” right before i close my eyes
i don’t wanna let that slide
i’m fine watching them fall in line so unidentified
i know better, i don’t wanna die yet
when i go i’ll leave behind part of my state of mind
or else what a waste of time
i know better, i don’t recognize myself
i know i sound entitled, well you’ll see me on the other side
stay sound asleep as i see everything go out of style
i keep opening doors, and i’ll leave them wide open, leave them behind
and it’s all in my head and i shouldn’t be envious, all i know is i’m still paralyzed i can’t waste my time
they’re drinking coffee and conversing about their hobbies things that make them feel alive
and sounding cocky as the say it’s worth it for the money
i don’t wanna live that life
i don’t wanna let that slide
i’m fine watching them fall in line so unidentified
i know better, i don’t wanna die yet when i go i’ll leave behind
part of my state of mind
or else what a waste of time
i know better, i don’t recognize myself
i know i sound entitled, fine with me you’ll see me on the other side
i know i sound entitled, fine with me you’ll see me on the other side
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i’m not ready to say i know
what the future will hold
‘cause we don’t know
i’m ready to go
conversations embrace my bones
so magnetic i feel that i can’t go
you’re lucky you’re home
i’ve been keeping thoughts in
i can feel you
breathing
beating
sleeping
i don’t wanna see this out yet
waste something beautiful
i don’t wanna play that card yet rather we bleed to the bone
it’s just a matter of time til the stars unalign
but all that i know is it’s worth half a fight or so
and you’ve got me
copacetic and so indulgent
wandering, wondering just how time it goes so quickly
we’ll never know
need we wait til the birds have flown?
hold my breath as i pray that this won’t fold
i’m ready to go
and since i’ve been pulled in
how am i supposed to leave you?
your skin encompasses all that i needed to know
i don’t wanna see this out yet
waste something beautiful
i don’t wanna play that card yet rather see this one cold
i know that all will be fine
and it’s not worth me trying
just how to define what a word can't describe
and you know that you’ve got me
i don’t wanna see this out yet
waste something beautiful
i don’t wanna play that card yet rather see this cold
maybe i’m out of my mind and its not worth our time
but all that i know is that something feels right
and you know
you’ve got me
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i could really use a miracle
have a spirit call me on my way
where’s the pot of gold?
this has gotten old
i pray you’re unbreakable
my body’s shaking but you’re barely one to blame
i’ve been feeling kind of cynical
at the pinnacle of my mistake
baby light the load
i can take the high road
wade on the brink of always and unthinkable
always seems the same
but i don’t really know
i don’t really care
i don’t wanna blow up but you know i’ll always be there
dare me to share what i carry
and lose to your prayer
i should’ve listened to what i’d been told
a city of gold is no home for holding onto your throne
and now that we’re grown
i’m over the hopeful tone
you’re not my own!
but that's a pretty low blow
i didn’t wanna play it back, i tried to block the fact you’d be the one to fuck me up like that
my bad you’re just a passing fad
i know i helped cast the shadow
and down below i felt you holding on the rope that i had dropped
no control, i forgot
so go
and i’ll pay the fare
as long as you’re home and i’m safe under someone else's care
be a burden to bury
i’m sure you’re nowhere
and baby sure enough there’s no repair
unpredictable
i warned you i won’t be there
cause i’m not holding onto you anymore
and i won’t fold
and i’m not yours
what’s more?
why don’t you know?
and why don’t you care?
and why won’t i blow up
for god's sake i think it’s only fair
you’re a burden to bury
i’m lost in your prayer
Singles
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i don’t wanna dominate the conversation
i don’t wanna get inside your head and make you worry but i guess i made you
pardon my imagination
pay no mind, just validation
i don’t need a reformation
i don’t know why
i don’t mean to complicate i know that you can’t relate
hide my head hide my face i don’t wanna be seen any way
and someone take me far away oh somewhere less self deprecating
i don’t need to be this way
don’t know why
and it might not be the last time
i’ll lose my mind again, again
waiting for the train i wonder whether it’s worth it
i’m out of water and the words are growing harder
but i know i gotta bother with another conversation i’m insatiable
i shouldn’t let me let you go
i couldn't let me let you go
hide my face and bite my tongue
i don’t know what’s going on
and i hope it’s not the last time
i don’t know why my friend
i remain frozen
speaking inverses stuck in rhyme
i couldn’t lie
i couldn’t lie
as i indulge in people and places so nearby
i wouldn’t try
i couldn’t lie
and it sure feels like the last time
i don't know why my friend, my friend
i don't know why my friend, my friend
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i keep on thinking that i might be alright if i give it time
i keep on thinking that i know what’s right, but i don’t know why
i’ll start a sentence but i can’t get it out
cannot speak my mind
and then it’s over and i’m frozen don’t know how i could say goodbye
and i could tell you i’m terrified
i know we’re only getting older until we die
but i find i’m undignified
i’ve lost control
i’ve lost my reason why
i’ve lost my appetite
but i’m still eating
i should be far away or far behind
where’s my friend tonight?
and i don’t wanna fight
where’s the silver lining?
only in my dreams am i breathing fine
so goodbye
hope you sleep tonight
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i don’t want to be set free
what if i get too happy?
i’m right where i need to be
what if i get too happy?
always have been told that i’ll be fine when i find home. although i fear i’ll make it there and i won’t know that i am there so i will go, and wonder if i am supposed to be happy
i don’t need to feel complete
i don’t think that would please me
i don’t need the rest of me
what if i get too happy?
always thought i’d known that i’d be fine just down the road. although i fear i’ll walk too far and i won’t know when i get there so i will go
and think i’m not where i’m supposed to be
and wonder if i am supposed to be
happy
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walked this line
so many times
it was so familiar
let my pride
leave me a guide
thinking that i could trust
it’s time to send my body home
i’m so tired
of thinking that i
thinking that i killed ya
took some time
letting you die
letting myself build up
it’s time to let my body go
it’s time to let my body go
cleaning out my closet i had filled it with your bones
thinking if i tossed it i would lose a sense of home
what should i do with all these skeletons? they’re blocking all my clothes
i gotta let it go now
walked this road
i loved it so
something that had grown love
though i know
tied to a rope
this road i had to rid of
it’s time to send my body home
it’s time to let my body grow
cleaning out my closet i had filled it with your bones
thinking if i locked it i’d forget they’re in my home
what should i do with all these skeletons? they’re blocking all my clothes
i gotta let it go now
i gotta let it go now